This Is Not the Colour I Remember is defined by a deep, muted crimson channel held tightly between two contrasting bodies of wood. The resin does not attempt to shine or declare itself. Instead, it absorbs light, revealing fine suspended particles that drift like distant noise in an otherwise quiet field. The surface feels less like liquid and more like memory — something solidified after long hesitation.
The channel here functions as a pause rather than a passage. It is neither moving forward nor receding. The red is restrained, softened by subtle variations that shift from wine to dusk, from warmth to restraint. These transitions are not dramatic; they are gradual, almost imperceptible, requiring time and stillness from the viewer.
The wood on either side reinforces this containment. Its grain is calm, familiar, almost indifferent. It does not react to the colour it frames. Instead, it acts as a boundary — not aggressive, but absolute. This contrast creates a tension between organic certainty and emotional ambiguity. The wood knows what it is. The channel does not.
Tiny inclusions within the resin interrupt the illusion of purity. They resemble distant stars, dust, or remnants of something once active. These imperfections are not flaws; they are evidence. They suggest that the colour has been lived in, altered, affected by time and process. The channel becomes a record rather than a design decision.
This Is Not the Colour I Remember explores the idea that recollection is unreliable. What once felt vivid now feels muted. What was certain now hesitates. The work does not attempt to restore intensity or clarity. Instead, it accepts distance — between past and present, between intention and outcome.
This piece marks a moment in the CHANNELS series where space no longer guides the eye forward, but inward. The channel becomes introspective, holding emotion without explaining it. It does not ask for interpretation; it allows recognition.
The colour remains, but its meaning has shifted.
year : 2024
material : monkeypod, resin
collection : #CHANNELS